It has been a while since I have written, so I thought I would just give you all some updates.
So, in reading Lies Women Believe, I have to say I have failed miserably the tests I have faced recently of these lies in my life. I have not been able to control my emotions, and I have let my temper get the better of me on more than one occasion. Stress has been impacting me in some very negative ways.
But there has been some good that has come out of this too. God has given me peace in the midst of the emotional turmoil. Though I have felt justified in my responses, I know I did not act appropriately. The outcome has been good in the long run, though, and for this, I am very thankful for God’s grace.
I had some issues with a doctor’s office here in town. We had some major miscommunications, and I felt belittled and my concerns and issues were not addressed by them. Instead of trying to work through the issues, I had a few outbursts. Blame it on pregnancy hormones or stress, it does not matter. I have since refused to be under their care, and am now working with a doctor three hours away from me. This doctor I have seen before, and am very pleased with her understanding and insight.
Now, the validation to my concerns has come, as I have seen improvement in my care even while I was monitoring my own medication and glucose levels while I was between doctors. I am thankful for the insight God has given me to my body’s needs! I am ever thankful for His provision for allowing me to work with the best doctors now, and to FINALLY be back on my insulin pump. Already, I am seeing drastic improvements even after 24 hours. Thank you, Lord!
Now, my biggest prayer request is for that of the baby growing within. With the delay of going back on the pump, and the stress-induced blood sugar swings, there are higher risks for some complications with baby’s heart. Please, pray that there are no lasting effects of my blood sugars on this precious baby! We’ll know more in a month or two after we have a fetal echo test done, but I know our God is greater than any physician. He has the ability to knit together a perfect heart, perfect lungs, perfect kidneys, etc. in this child.
He did this for Zander, and I know He can do it again. If He chooses not to, I know I have to prepare for that. He is the great Physician, though, and I trust Him. In all things, I must trust Him.
In the meantime, though, will you lift me up in prayer, and lift this pregnancy and baby up in prayer? We’re 12 weeks today! I can’t believe we’re almost a third of the way through already! Time flies! And, thank you for praying!