I deserve it…but what is it I deserve???

The series we just finished up at church really hit me.  I should say the last message in the series especially hit me.

We use the phrase, “I deserve it!” way too freely.  Thinking about buying a new car:  I deserve it!  Thinking about the job interview the other day:  I deserve it!  The slice of pie, or the 8 cookies I just ate…but I deserve it!

What is it we truly deserve though?  Life owes us nothing.  God owes us nothing.  All He gives to us He gives freely out of love for His creation.  And what does He give us?  Ultimately, judgement if we are apart from Christ.  But He gave us a way to grace and mercy.  Jesus lights the way.  In fact, He IS the WAY!

Every single one of us has fallen short of the glory of God.  We have ALL sinned, in big and small ways.  Covered in the stench of sin, we are filthy rags in the presence of our Holy God.  Until we are cleansed by the blood of the Lamb, filthy will we remain.  Only Christ can wipe the stains and stench away!

So I deserve failure.  I deserve my consequences.  I deserve…none of the blessings I have in my life.  In the past, I turned away from God.  I doubted.  I hated.  I didn’t deserve what I experienced in this life.  Yet He showed me grace.  He held me, loved me, let me kick and scream until I saw His Truth.

Peter denied his connections to Jesus THREE times!  He turned away in the darkest hour.  So when Jesus came back, He came to Peter.  He called Peter for a specific purpose, in spite of the mistakes Peter had made.  And He calls each of us in the same way.

We deserve death, and yet He gives LIFE!  Not just life, but ETERNAL LIFE.  He gives us a relationship with Him if we but choose to follow.  Every time I think of my past, and how far He has brought me, I am in awe.  I turned away, but He never left my side.

And now, here my husband and I are in Champaign, serving our God at Grace Community Church and at Centennial High School.  We don’t know how long He has us here, but we will serve Him in the mean time.

Watch the series “I Deserve It.”  Do it.



“Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)”

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Oh, Jesus, you’re my God!

I will call upon Your name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

Every time I hear this song, I am reminded that life does not go as I have planned it.  God really is in control, in every mountain-top experience and every valley full of shadows and unknowns.  So, as Peter did, I get out of the boat and walk on water toward Jesus.  Keeping my eyes stayed on Him, He will not let me drown.  If I should (and I have) turn my eyes away and focus on the stormy waves around me, I will sink.  I have sunk before, and yet He grabs my hand and pulls me to Him.  He is my Savior, and I will continue to call upon His name!