In this society we live in, it is so easy to compare ourselves to others. We compare to make ourselves feel better. We compare and end up feeling worse. “At least I am better than…” or “I wish I could be like…” can be such dangerous phrases!
For so many years, I did the “I wish I could be like…” I spiraled into an unsafe pit of self-loathing, self-hate, and almost zero self-worth. I was always pushing myself to be better, to be perfect. It became an obsession to prove my worth. I ended up in toxic relationships because I didn’t think anyone could really love me.
Finally, I got a serious wake-up call, and God revealed Himself in a mighty way. There is so much more to this moment, these series of moments (as I have posted in previous blog posts), but I just want to share this with you right now:
GOD IS ENOUGH. I will never be enough, AND I am a daughter of the King of Kings, who will ALWAYS be enough. I can never measure up. Jesus Christ is the only valid comparison I can measure myself to, and that is simply to realize that I am not perfect, I can never be perfect, and yet His perfection is all I need. He stands in the gap for me, He covers me with His perfect sacrifice, and is ALL I NEED. When I am covered by His blood, God sees HIM alone. None of my faults, none of my imperfections. He sees His creation, His works, and His works are ALWAYS good.
Enough. I am covered by enough. Nothing else matters. Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me to have a relationship with our Father, the God of the Universe. Thank you for being enough.
Reference Psalm 139, Romans 8, 2 Corinthians 12, pretty much all of scripture to verify these conclusions! 🙂